“Tanya, you have PERMISSION!” That’s how this week started; a 30 second, motivational and VERY EMOTIONAL moment during the webinar giving myself PERMISSION. It was rather easy giving myself PERMISSION to access AND USE my POWER but, giving myself PERMISSION to be HAPPY wasn’t that easy at all. I was rather taken aback and surprised when I said to myself, “Tanya, you have PERMISISON to be HAPPY.” After all, I’ve been proclaiming, “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, AND HAPPY” for several weeks now. So, why was I so emotional giving myself PERMISSION to be HAPPY? Was I not sincere when I was reciting that affirmation? Do I not truly believe that I can be happy; that I have PERMISSION to be happy?
I pondered this question during my Sits this week as well as continuing to affirm, “Tanya, you have PERMISSION”. This along with concentrating on my DMP, and going back to previous reflections on kindness and insight, allowed me to extend my Sits to 30 minutes most times (I usually did 15 min back to back with a brief time in between to reset the clock; I haven’t yet tried to actually sit for 30 min on the clock…that will be my next challenge). After my emotional experience on Sunday, giving myself PERMISSION during The Sit was so much easier. I think Sunday with saying, “Tanya, you have PERMISSION to be HAPPY” aloud for the 1st time was a reality check and the magnitude of what the meant was HUGE…the magnitude of what that means is HUGE! I don’t have to wait for someone or something to be happy; I AM….HAPPY! I don’ thave to wait for time, money, someone, etc. for anything; I AM ABLE to USE and ACCESS MY POWER WITHIN!
My virtue for this week is DECISIVENESS. This goes hand in hand with GRANTING myself PERMISSION. I have made the DECISION to give myself PERMISSION to USE and ACCESS MY POWER AND PERMISSION to be HAPPY! I’ve decided that PERMISSION is GRANTED!
Until next time…